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September 28 RIP Fishypoo...Sept 28,07. 15.35.Rip Fishypoo. Im sorry....so sorry. We love you. I pray god sends you into a wonderful place and that he will take good care of you. You will always be in my heart. Amen....
Love you FP
SJ* August 22 Something i need to take care of...A poem....
 Boys they like to play with things
To see what makes them run,
But when it comes to kissing,
They do it just for fun.
Boys never give their hearts away
They play us girls for fools,
They wait until we give our hearts
And then they play it cool.
You will wonder where he is at night
You will wonder if he's true,
One moment you will be happy,
One moment you will be blue.
If you get a chance to see him
Your heart begins to dance
Your life revolves around him,
There's nothing like romance.
And then it starts to happen,
You worry day and night
You see, my friend, you're losing him
It never turns out right.
Boys are great, though immature
The price you pay is high,
He may seem sweet and gorgeous
But remember, he's a guy.
Don't fall in love with just a boy
That takes a lot of nerve.
You see, my friend, you need a man
To get what you deserve.
So when you think that you're in love,
Be careful if you can
Before you give your heart away
Make sure that he's a man.
Such a true poem. Since this is a blog, and what youre suppose to do in a blog is spurt out your feelings, then i will. If you read this and find info out that you didnt want to, then that is just your fault for reading my page in the first place. Im not trying to be rude but i had a few comments due to that, and i preferably would like to get things straightened out. Thank you ;)
Back to the spurting out feelings. I have a problem i guess you can call it that. I like 4 different guys. Some way more then others...Some in a different way then the others. Its difficult to explain.
The first one (not going to mention any names) i have liked for years. But he doesnt even know i exist, at least i dont think so. Sure ive talked to him plenty of times, and a few times i think he liked me to. But other then that, i dont think he has a clue. He always talks about other girls that he dates and is infatuated with. Then he breaks up with them and is all sad, then gets over it. And that brings me down. I havent talked to him since last school year, and maybe ill never get the chance to again. I dont know whether i should give it up or just wait? I think i should give it up becuz he'll never knowtise me...but who knows.
 The second one i have liked for a few years now. and its complicated then ever. Ive given up plenty of times, but always seem to end up back where i started. He's also with someone else...there is so much to meantion that i dont even want to start. He makes me laugh and happy half the time, the other half he makes me sad. Should i grow up the nerve to finally go away? It wouldnt make a difference to him... I need someone who will fight for me, not let me go.
The third one has also been a few years type thing. But during that time ive always thought of him as a friend. Until up to this year. We joke around and encourage eachother as friends. But i like him more then that. The thing is...he doesnt show his feelings towards me and that confuses the hell out of me. And when i get confused...i back away. It's hard to explain him, he's very nice and sweet but his mind is a mystery to me. Since i dont know how he feels, and i dont know if he feels more for me then friends, or if he'd be faithful, then i dont know what to do.
The fourth is kind of a new sprung. We've been friends for awhile. When he dates someone, i encourage him. And when i date someone, he encourages me. He helps me with my problems, and is sometimes very psyhcic. But i sometimes wonder what would happen if we did get together? Has he even thought of that?
It isnt like i want to be with all of these guys. I like them, and possibilities could pop up. These are the guys that stand out from the rest. The first one i should give up, the second one i should make a real decision for myself, the third i should talk it out with, and the fourth id have to wait. Like i said, i want a guy whom will fight for me and not let me go so easily. My judgement may be off, but only time will tell.
The one thing that ponders on my mind is that there are millions of girls out there...why would they even want to try with me? What makes me so different from the rest? It saddens me when i think of this...
Last weekend i went school shopping on saturday. On sunday i went with my dad and saw the movie 'stardust' in theaters. I thought it wouldnt be very good but it surprisingly was. The commersals doesnt do it justice. Then we went to my grdf house and swam in his pool for 15 min before it downpoured. After that we played rummy for a few hours while betting lottery tickets. It was very fun, but i didnt win any. Sly misters. Now im just spending the rest of the few days in peace before school starts. Dreding it. :P Babysitting dogs...and umm...thats about it. lol. Boring me, i know. I have a few things to go do, so ill talk later maybe. Miss you all! Adios.
July 12 You're way too...I'm so tired that it is unbelievable. But thats what you get for watching Ghost Hunters then going straight to bed. No hours of sleep. Zip, nil. My imagination was going wild. It's quite funny.
Well im finally back on and running. I think im starting to get addicted to sunbathing. Every day i lay out in the sun and get tan, so now im quite tan as you can imagine. I'm also on the eating galore rage. Eating every two hours. I guess its because im so bored. ALso because of something else. Well, thats all for now.
This is a song that i really disliked when it first came out, now its quite catchy, and weird. Listen. It's Sean Kingston with 'Beautiful Girls (suicidal)'.
June 25 Back with info/plansWow, ive had a very very interesting week/weekend that it's crazy. I guess ill start at the beginning.
*First off, i wasnt here most of last week. I guess you could say i 'was shipped' to my sisters on Tuesday porque there was a job/favor asked. I was asked to take care of a baby kitten, and i was delighted. He wouldnt eat, and would just keep crying. I had to feed him every two or less hours with an eye dropper :P Before i left, he was eating out of the bowl and not yelping. He was the most adorable thing though. Black fur and blue eyes. I guess i have a fairly big compassion towards animals.
*When i got back on saturday, i had a few appointments. I watched my cousin's baseball games, spent time with the family, rode a fourwheeler, and made future plans.
*I have alot of good news. First off, the end of this weekend and next week ill be away in North Carolina. Exciting isnt it? The next good news is that im talking to a certain someone and i guess im not quite 'single' anymore. Dont we just love the cell phone? I do.
*This morning i got a voice message on my phone at 4am. At first it sounded like something i didnt want to hear, but then i listened closely. It was....like splashing water with tiny horror voices. It creeped me out so badly ... still does. I saved it, but im afraid to listen to it. It was probabley a prank call but... it sounded so real.
Well, i have a lot more to say but ill stop here. Kiss Kiss! Buenas Dias.
Edit, Wedn june 27, 07: Well, its Sweet Wednesday! By Saturday Night ill be on the 15 hr journey to N.C. A friend told me this "take pride in yourself. In your self worth"....I have to agree with him fully. We all make mistakes, but we learn from our mistakes. We all get beat up with our emotions by someone saying something, and we recover due to awesome friends and ourselves.
I happen to like this song alot. It shows anger and frustration, but actually, it makes me in a really good mood. Dont ask why, it just does. It's Eve 6 with 'think twice'.
June 14 Two princes and the outcome."Little miss little miss cant be wrong"---love the Spin Doctors. They are such a fun group, and i like alot of their songs. But i must say, my favorite of theirs is 'two princes'. (which is the link down below). *sings*
http://youtube.com/watch?v=nCjtRJkS85w I'd choose the one whom 'aint in his head '. Bad grammar, but whom really cares?! :D I've learned to just have fun. Dont get too serious, but lighten up alittle. Goofy me :P I've learned about my mothers past, and i heard that she was quite the catch. If a guy meantioned a commitment, she'd run. A lot of marrage proposals. Crazy :P Better catch the one you want.
Edit: i havent danced as much as to this song for awhile. This is probabley the first time i danced fully in along time. Feels good baby!!!
Yeah June 13 Pride and a cake w/o sugar.^This song makes a feeling inside come alive called pride. I feel so proud when i hear this song. Its wonderful, that feeling. I definetly reccomend this song.
I havent really done anything TOO interesting today. Walked to the postoffice, mailed something, and watching my neighbors dogs. Yesturday night i worked, and dogs and more dogs :P
"my baby loves me just the way that i am" ---from a song im listening to. Cute :D
My bro just made chocolate cake batter, and he tasted it and said it was so gross. He asked me to taste it. I tasted it, and said he forgot to add the sugar. Just think, a cake without SUGAR!!! lol...
My fishypoo is doing good. Im surprised he lived this long. He live triple times of my other pets. Except iggy...RIP.
Well, if anything else happens ill start writing. Its nice to just have a place where you can type without everyone knowing. ;) Love yalls!
June 06 Hot news over NightHot news over Night!!!! Credit Credit Go...
One of our cars has been vandilized. We woke up to find eggs smashed inside the interior and ducts of our car, a gas cap gone, and the door left wide open. Thats a pretty low thing to do. I dont think it was pointed towards me, but another family member. People are sick. Sad but true.
Another interesting news is that a few days ago i chewed my first piece of gum in 2 years. Pretty amazing huh? No, i didnt have a gum addiction and had to be taken to the recovery center, lol. I just followed my othodontist. It feels great to chew gum again. Wooooo!
This is all the truth. Such news. I have more news but im not going to tell. "ill never telllll" ---from the movie that i love 'Dont say a Word'.
I listen to this cd last night. Its by Allision Crauss with Brad Paisley. I cryed when i listened to it, i cry every time i hear it. Its so very sad. The link to the song is down below. Its called Whiskey lalaby. Just listen to the song....
May 31 Just a quick...Just a quick update for today. Exam exams exams. But im 'loving every minute of it'. Im missing someone :( But itll be 8 days til he is back! Woot Woot for that! How can someone be attached this quickly? Its crazy!!! Hope all you good people have a wonderful day!! Me gusta r. May 29 3 amIve always been a fan of Matchbox Twenty, and will continue to be. I'll be 60 years old sitting in a condo singing to this song. This weekend i did nada, but i have a few things i would like to mention. Be afraid, be very afraid ;)
Thing number one id like to mention is that i got my results back from my OGT test. I passed them all, all scored in advanced except for writing. Can you believe that? I got a accelerated in writing, and im writing right now perfectly well? I'm happy for the results that I received.
Thing number two id like to mention is that this is the final week of school. I have no idea what im going to do over the summer... probabley laying outside in a lawn chair or painting the house. One of the two. Exam week! Ukk.
Thing number three is that i cant keep from smiling. Can you guess why? :D No, you probabley cant. It has to deal with a special someone. I'm becoming attached, ahhhh. After 5 years of friendship, i havent been attached, and now.... its changed. I hope i dont spoil it. Yeah, i have my moods, but hey, you love me :D
Although i cant relate to the lyrics, i love the song just the way it is...
She says it's cold outside She says baby She's got a little bit She believes that life She says baby May 24 Day of Fire- through the fireheard this song today and I absolutely fell in love with it. Listen! Its day of fire...
Walk in the flame again
I’ll be there to hold your hand Keeping you safe until the end And when the flood begins I’ll be there with you to stand Walking in faith until the end Chorus I’ll see you through the flood I’ll see you through the fire I’ll see you through the storms raging Walk in the darkest rain I’ll cover you by my name I’m shelter inside your world of pain Step on the waters wave Come unto me by faith I am the light of better days Chorus Don’t be afraid I’ll never leave you I am forever yours Don’t be afraid I’ll never leave you I am forever yours Forever yours May 18 Fuel--May 18, 07Hola! Soy aburrido pero bien. (goes to english)... This is my newest blog place. If you dont like it, tough ;) I've been doing a few things, lets talk about it.
We are starting to disect a frog on Monday. I adore animals and when I see you have to break the jaw and cut it open, i was frozen. Tearing apart an innocent body. Yes, its ONLY a frog, but i cant do i. But ill try. We'll see how it goes.
Last night I watched the retirement of Bob Barker. I was so shocked that he was in his 80s. I have been watching The Price Is Right for all my lifetime, and i am sad to see him go. PLINKO!!! This weekend im going to work and hopefully go fishing in the rivers and lakes. All you need is a pole and some bait (plus a license). Alot of other people my age are going to parties and drinking (heard it allll day today), but me, well, im not like that. I dont want to be like that.
I love to receive mail. Not email, but mail. Every day i look in the mailbox and see if there is anything for me. I love to sent, i love to receive. About every few weeks i get a letter from certain people, which always pulls me out of my bad mood and makes me smile. I think that if someone sent you a letter, they took the time and love for you to write back. I guess mail is just my fettish.
Last year i had bad luck with my potted flower plants seeds. They were like a Chinese flower. I planted them and they grew like weeds, but then they wouldnt grow anymore. They just....stopped. No buds were there, so no flowers. Every year in spring i plant potted seeds. This year i picked Zinnia's. They very pretty so hopefully it works out. They are my hope that this year will be a great one.
Advice to all the guys out there (from a girl perspective): When you find the right girl, be with her and make her know that you care only for her. No wishing it could be a different way, no wanting to go out in public to see others, let her know that you care. And if you screw it up, put the pieces back together. Do not back away like the other guys, be brave and conquere through it. If you love her, youll love her forever. Take that into consideration the next time you talk to her. You think differently from the other gender, maybe totally the opposite. So try it.
"When I give a lecture, I accept that people look at their watches, but what I do not tolerate is when they look at it and raise it to their ear to find out if it stopped."
- Marcel Achard http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LKUVkRAmPs ---Watch this.
May 16 A few things you never knew about meA few things you never knew about me
*I love to dance by myself, but never around people
*I like to lay in the rain with only a lawnchair and my clothes
*Im more into the complicated people then into the happy joy joy kind of people
*Im terrified of death
*I can eat jars of pickles at a time
*I rather lay on the floor instead of my bed
*I think everything happens for a reason
*I have no favorite movie or song
*I find the most different guys the most adorible
*I love someone but they seem to not love me back
*Daisies are my favorite flower
*I believe in evolution, although god put the first cell on earth so it could evolve into somet else
*I believe in ghosts
*I cant sleep with my socks on
*Im rather sarcastic and i like it when guys say out their feelings
*I do not believe in love at first sight
*Ive been to Ohio, Indiana, Virginia, West Virginia, Kentucky, Tennessee, North Carolina, Georgia, Florida, Canada, New York, Pennsylvania... and i plan on continueing my travel
*Never been kissed
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